Rabu, 30 Januari 2008

Malam yg aku pening2 lalat

    Cerita tentang masalah ni mmg takkan sudah. PAsal kita manusia la kita kena hadapi masalah. Kalau kita tak pernah ada masalah, maknya kita bukan manusia. Dengan masalah la kita mampu berkembang dan menikmati kehidupan ni. Cuma kita kena yakin dan tabah bahawa setaiap masalah tu ada jalan penyelesaian nya. Dan ada kalanya hanya masa yg menyelesaikan. Kawan aku ada sampaikan satu nasihat yang berguna, mudah je: kalau nak selsaikan masalah kita, jgn guna pemikiran yg sama sewaktu kita cipta masalah tu. Mungkin la ayat nya tak sedap tapi leh la aku pk2 kan.

Dalam post yg lepas aku ada publish speech yg disampai kan oleh Steve Jobs, CEO Apple. Byk menda2 yg menarik kat situ yg leh kita ambil iktibar.

you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future.

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Selasa, 29 Januari 2008

Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

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Isnin, 28 Januari 2008

Alahai Cuti

Cuti ujung minggu yang menyeronokkan dan memenat kan. :)

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Isnin, 21 Januari 2008

Adat la kot

Adat la, kalau ko menjemur kain baju sebelum kerja, kalau time kerja hujan, basah la jugak. Nak wat mcm mana, mana ada bibik nak angkat. :)

Adat la, duit akan susut. dapat gaji riban2 mcm mana pun akan susut gak. ye la, apa guna ada duit tapi tak leh nak guna. gile hape tak nak guna duit. huh.

Adat la, kalau dah joli sakan time cuti ujung minggu sampai tak cukup tidur. Bila masuk opis mata bengkak la ngantuk. Biasa la tu kan.

So, jgn tensen2 and marah2.. esok kan masih ada..kalau panjang umur. :P

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Ahad, 20 Januari 2008

Malam, Hotel dan ceria seorang Member :)

Kawan aku akan sambung belajar kat benua plg kecil kat atas muka bumi ni. Dia akan berlepas pada awal bulan 2 ni.  So, aku menemani dia menikmati kehudpan malam KL buat kali terkahir sebelum dia bertolak. Di khabarkan, mungkin dia akan berada di sana dalam 2 tahun. Dalam petang tu, aku ngan dia pusing2 satu KL sampai penat,kami pun check in hotel dalam pukul 7 lebey.

Mujur sekarang ni bukan musim cuti. Kami dapat la hotel yg betul2 kat tengah2 Bukit Bintang tu.

Dalam malam tu, aku jumpa kawan aku. Kami hang out sampai pukul 12 kat  KLCC. Meriah rupanya KLCC malam2 ujung minggu tu. Dapat la tgk mcm mana dia org cuci tingkap dan cermin kat bagunan tinggi2 tu. Menarik gak. Mcm best je aku tgk. Mencabar gila.

So, aku rush nak kena naik putra pasal train last dia pukul 12. Sempat gak. :) Maka pada malam tu jugak la, aku menikmati santai2 di cafe sambil dengar live band buat performance. Sgt meriah suasana. Dalm satu jam gak la aku kat situ. Tup2 baru aku teringat yg aku kena siap kan installation tertentu sebelum aku nak pass barang tu kat kakak aku. Rushing gak la balik hotel. Mujur kami stay kat hotel yg betul2 strategik. hehehe..(ngat nak stay umah kawan aku..haha)

Esok pagi nya kawan aku nak kena bertolak balik kampung. Dia ada urusan kat kampung tu sebelum nak berangkat nanti. Sedih gak la. Ye la, lepas ni aku dah tak jumpa dia dalam 2 tahun. PAsti aku akan rindu gak nanti.

Apa2 pun, aku rasa aku dan dia dah menikmati percutian yg betul2 mereleaskan tensen. Aku sgt puas hati la. Sekurang2 nya aku dah menunaikan hasrat kawan aku ni. Dia kawan baik aku dan aku tak ramai ada kawan baik. :)

Pada kawan aku tu, selamat berjuang dan aku doakan kita semua akan berjaya. Insyaallah aku pun akan sambung studi mcm ko nanti. :P

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Isnin, 14 Januari 2008

Alumni Give Back : Be Industry Ready !!!

Pada hari sabtu lepas (12 Jan 2008), aku menghadiri satu program alumni kat u lama aku -- UTEM--. Ramai gak la yg hadir. Alumni nya dalam 13 org rasa nya. Kira ok la tu pasal kami pun di jemput secara tergesa-gesa. Main sms je masa nak jemput tu. Ada 3 org yg sepatutnya menghadirkan diri tapi tak berjaya datang. Tapi ok la jugak pasal semua nya yg dirancang masih jalan seperti biasa.

Aku diberikan tanggung jawab untuk menyampai ceramah pertama dan satu bengkel. Dalam ceramah yg pertama tu aku sentuh pasal persedian pelajar nak ke Industri. Aku bagi talk pun base on pengalaman aku yg seciput je. Isi pun baru aku siapkan dalam malam sebelum nya. Almaklumlah aku ni bidan terjun. :)

Ni gambar aku nak mula cceramah. :P

Lma gak la aku bagi talk, dalam sejam setengah kot. Lepas bagi talk aku rehat. Sgt letey maa. Mujur dalam pada waktu tu, si gang satyam dah sampai. Fahmi pun ada masa tu. Terharu aku. Risau gak aku takut dia org tak datang.

Gambar minum petang rasa nya.

Ni rasa nya masa tgh bincang2 kot.

BAgi aku, program hari tu kira ok la. Berjalan seperti apa yg dirancang. Even tak la smooth tapi ok la. Pasal tak de la sampai kami terpaksa tangguh program pasal alumi tak cukup ke or student takda. Apa2 pun mewakili alumni, aku nak ucapkan terima kasih pada pihak fakulti kerana sudi menerima kehadiran kami di bumi melaka ni. So tahun depan dengar cerita dah nak pindah ke kampus tetap. hehe.. dalam kepala otak ni rasanya nak buat lagi la program mcmc ni. Rasa nya nak buat besar2an la kalau boleh. Nak rasa kampus tetap lak mcm mana. :P

Kawan baik aku dah Kawen

Alhamdulillah, akhirnya nya salah sorang sahabat baik aku telah berumah tangga. Shawun telah menh akad nikah pada 12 Jan 2008 dan keduri kahwin serta persandingan nya pulak pada 13 Jan 2008. Aku sempat la jugak menjengah sahabat baik aku ni kawen.
Aku doakan yang masjid yang di bina akan kekal bahagia hingga ke ke akhir hayat di dunia yg fana ini.

Kepada Shaun dan Tila.. aku doakan korang dua bahagia dan diberkati oleh Allah..

Kalau tak de masalah, Kenduri sambut menantu belah Shawun nanti aku akan pergi. Jgn lupa jemput aku ye. Hehehe..

Memamg ibarat bagai pinag di belah dua. Sama cantik, sama padan.hehe..

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Khamis, 3 Januari 2008

Sajak Sejak

Ku titipkan pada angin malam,
Tentang rindu.. kasih.. dan cinta,
Apakah aku cuma...
Ibarat pungguk rindukan bulan..
Selamanya dan seakannya,
Hanya jauh di mata.

Ku titipkan pada angin malam,
Tentang kisah-kisah cinta kita,
Yang dalam nya hanya ada,
Pilu dan kecewa yang tidak mengenal masa,
Maka apakah harus cerita itu di teruskan,
atau ia sekadar cerita panglipulara..

Ku titipkan pada angin malam,
Tentang hilai tawa kita..
Padahal dibaliknya,
hanyalah duka dan air mata..
Apakah kita sekadar berpura-pura..
Atau benar cinta itu buta..

Ku titipkan pada angin malam..
Biarlah titipan ini sampai di sini..
Dan aku.. Dan engaku..
Agar kita bisa terus melangkah..
Sementara ajal belum menemui kita..

Mayamin Manjakasih

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Mengalah bukan Kalah

Begini, ada org bijak pandai bagitau kat aku..

Bila kamu masuk ke suatu bilik, maka kamu juga kena tahu mana pintu keluar nya.

Mungkin ayatnya tak berapa sedap dari ayat yg sebenar.. tapi itu la hakikat lumrah alam ni. Aku, anda dan kita semua kena tahu bila saat dan ketikanya yang kita kena faham untuk mengundurkan diri.  Mungkin ada org kata apa yang aku tulis ni membosan kan. Tapi aku harap tulisan aku ni akan terpahat kat kepala otak dia.

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